With the simple touch of my mother’s hand, did I get so emotional at Homily. I’m still unsure as to why I shed such tears. I think of it now, and I wonder maybe, was it distance? Was I just tired? Because I couldn’t conclude to any real reason. I tried to analyze whether I was upset or angry…but nothing of this day could have possibly made me so. At least, I dont think? I dont know what’s wrong with me honestly. Then I saw my mom gesture to my dad that his daughter was crying, he pulled out his signature handkerchief that I grew up with, with that familiar smell and familiar fold that was always saved in his pocket, as if it were his cape, as if a superhero, to save his little girl, to wipe her tears per-say.

Still unsure.

• I’m tired of my hair, I want it one solid color now.

• Why did my dad have to have a big car collection.

• I’m in need for some relaxation time.

• I havent rode a bike since like last summer. I want my own now. I was thinking for my 18th birthday, which is weird cause most people would ask for a new car. But I want this bike so I can ride on campus for the college I go to; maybe :)

• My thundery thighs and colossal calves… I don’t know what to do with them.

There’s something about your eyes that I can’t help but think about the lies that are hiding. But they’re not really hiding are they? They just haven’t been spoken properly to each other; we have spoken properly to each other. I’m sorry when I can’t stop staring when we talk or when I look at you and you look at me, it’s just that I can’t help but feel that I want more than what is not ‘we.’ I’m sorry that didn’t make sense, it always makes more sense in my head, but you won’t ever get there, or my heart. I’m sorry but I’ve been corny from the start. I’m asking all these questions and assuming, but they’ll never be answered. I’m sorry.

vivalarianne:

1. People who have given us their complete confidence believe that they have a right to ours. The inference is false, a gift confers no rights.
2. Morality is but the herd-instinct in the individual.
3. We often refuse to accept an idea merely because the way in which it has been expressed is…

-ashleygiselle:

I cant wait till I have that one bf to go grocery shopping with, church, and like cute mini lunch dates after work.

yeah.

• You have horrible timing of making things all about you, and you do it only around certain people, just stop. It’s not cute, that’s not how you are.

• I’m not hating, it’s annoying when you’ve been experiencing this since forever.

• I like the beach and the sound of waves, it’s actually very soothing.

• I don’t like marshmallows.

• I wish we could have talked. I don’t even know who I wanted to talk to though..